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the frost from this morning

wow.. its been a whirlwind since i last wrote...life has been so crazy! but i am holding on with God's grace and never ending strength :) and i am so grateful for that.

funny thing..i prayed that God would give me a hard time this upcoming school year. i asked him to challenge me...i don't really know why but one day i was just praying while i was doing "life" and all of a sudden i just prayed for that...it kinda came out before i could stop it.
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i wanted to grow and to be stretched in Him. i didn't want it to be easy for me. and boy...i don't think i have been this stretched in a very long time. but i know i will grow from this time in life and learn so many important lessons.
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for a while i was feeling very spiritually dry. tired. distant from God. and then school came in august.
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 school has been one of the hardest things for me right now. it has been personally very frustrating. and the people i dare rub shoulders with are so vile in their language and so worldly. i know they are hurting and i am trying to be the light but it is hard.
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i know i will look back on this time and see how much i have grown but right now all i can focus on is trying to keep my head above the water and to keep my focus on my Savior.
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so here is a poem i wrote a few days ago. i hope it helps any of you reading :)
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the times when i'm weak
and don't want to breath
i feel You with me...
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those moments where 
i'm crying inside
and in my head 
there is strife
i feel You by my side 
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when my life falls apart
Lord, i know you hold 
my heart
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when i push you away 
and wander and stray 
You love me anyway
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in these moments 
i realize that without 
you with me 
i couldn't even be  
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